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|Wednesday, May 12th, 2004|
So apparently i haven't updated this in a long time... i guess it's for lack of things to say... or for that matter, becuase i'm posting somewhere else! check out http://www.geocities.com/findhelpforpat
It's a joke website my buddy posted and then i just kind of got onto it. So check it out and stuff
|Tuesday, May 4th, 2004|
|I am Passionate
Okay, so i may come off a bit strong in some of my opinions on things. I know this much, but please, before any of you start judging my every move, saying that i've become too serious or passionate, i want to express clearly that it's my passion on issues that drives me to write. I like talking politics, i enjoy talking about music and i love having serious conversations about life. I'm not one to use my live journal to say what i do everyday because to be honest, i feel it's not a productive use of my time. I write about things that i observe, feel and want to comment on. I have strong opinions, and i try my best to look at all sides of a subject. You DON'T HAVE TO AGREE with my opinions because i am not asking you to. This live journal is more for me than anyone else, people can read it and i'll have no problem with it. Just, whatever you do, don't tell me what i can and cannot say and don't judge my writing if it's odd, because it's mine and means something to me.
I still love to read comments, but please, if you don't have anything nice to say, or trying to stimulate an interesting conversation, please don't say anything at all. Current Mood: sleepy
|Monday, May 3rd, 2004|
|It's all about the benjamins baby!
I swear that's what it all should be called. Gordo doesn't want to pay out, HEU doesn't want to sell out. Everything is a complete mess eh. I will say honestly and frankly that nobody is ever going to be happy. I agree that people deserve to earn a decent amount for a living. People should be able to live off of their work, especially if they work as a full time nurse or something thereof. So i was thinking of a way that the government wouldn't have to pay out, but the nurses could get some more money and i think i have it. Remember, i'm only 18, so i don't understand matters to do with money and all that, but why can't... and this is the crazy part... maybe... the government officials and the Executive Doctor's Council (i forget what they're called) take a little bit of a pay cut. I mean, they're getting paid how much? $125+? Somewhere around there? I don't think it's a bad idea to share that wealth a bit. I mean Doctors save lives granted, but... so do nurses.... and politicians don't save lives. Remember, they get one free kill ;).
Anyway, i will sum up my stance with this:
There is no difference between the government ignoring you and you ignoring the homeless person on the street who is looking for change to buy food.
But once again... that's just one man's opinion.
|It's one man's opinion...
Today i'm going to step back from my usual absurdly made musings and make a statement and comment on music. The other day i was listening to the local radio station (actually it was a while ago, but it still is a true story) and i heard that there is a competition between 3 Days Grace and Black Sabbath for some sort of song battle thingy. Anyway, to my absolute and UTTER horror, a kid called in voting for 3 Days Grace saying that Black Sabbath sucked and shouldn't even be played anymore.... i was not impressed... and i came o so close to cleffing my radio in twain... Black Sabbath ended up winning but that's not the point. It is not my intention to "trash" 3 Days Grace, they have fans, people like them, yadda yadda. I am not a fan myself, but i will respect their talents and all that stuff. This event was merely a microcosm of what I see happening to classic rock all around the world: it's being forgotten. Although the memory of great bands/performers such as Louis Armstrong, The Ramones, The Beatles, Elton John, Led Zeppelin, Roy Orbison, etc (the list goes on and on) still lingers, i feel its presence dying out everyday, being replaced by music that focuses on image rather than the ability to sing or perform. All somebody needs is a computer and they can put out a record that sounds perfect in every way, shape, and form. Is that right? Years ago bands like the Beatles had to play a song over and over again until every note hit the exact pitch. Nowadays, a simple click of a button will do all that for a so called "artist". I do recognize that this recording equipment can helpful to bands who are struggling financially, but it puts too much of a focus on "image" rather than the music. These days I almost hear as much about what the artist wears/buys as what he releases. Do I care where J-Lo shops? No. Do I like seeing that 50 Cent wears more money around his neck than most families have to their names? No. Did Avril invent the wearing of the tie image? No. No. No and who cares! Business men have been wearing ties for years. I will state openly that classic stars have had images as well, but at least they were born from their music. Jimi Hendrix had a crazy image, but he had tons of music there to back it up. Elton John has no real, widely defined image, but he writes incredible music and nobody can contest that. So what's my point? My point is (A)Don't buy into the image. If you're going to listen to a band, listen to them for their music. Any band can dress differently, but only good ones can actually play. (B) before you go off dismissing old music for crap. Listen to it. And for God's sake, have some bloody respect for it because without them you wouldn't have what exists today.
If you took out a band/ensemble/group/performer from music's history, you not only destroy a band, you destroy a history and dynasty. Current Mood: cheerful
|Saturday, May 1st, 2004|
Who am i?
I am a typical teenager. That's all there is to it. I experience the same things as anyone else and am affected by similar problems. I have deeply rooted issues with myself and i fully acknowledge them. I think i'm fat. I know this, and deal with it in a manner which i see fit. I feel judged all the time, especially with my live journal, i feel as though i have something to prove to everyone, but i know i don't. Sometimes i feel as if i'm all alone and even my friends don't like me, but i know that's just me being stupid. I fear rejection because i'm afraid of being judged by "failures". I try hard in everything i do because i want to show what i have to offer the world. I feel jealous, sad, confused, horny, happy, misunderstood, stupid, insecure, unfulfilled, worried, content, accomplished, smart, helpful, and any other emoticon you can pop up on that list. Sometimes a lot of them at the same time. Am i ashamed? No, because i am human. I live a beautiful life full of beautiful people and for all my inhibitions and problems, i know there is so much more beauty and purity in my life. Thank you family, thank you friends, because sometimes i don't think you know how much you mean to me and i don't think you are told often enough your importance.
This is all yet it is not enough
but it may tell you i am still alive
as a man who takes a brick along
to show the world what his house is like.
I know who i am and i have come to terms with it.
Now, ask yourself, who are you? Current Mood: Everything
|Friday, April 30th, 2004|
Don't get me wrong on the abortion issue though. The important thing is that no side is right if they don't listen to what each other have to say and respecting our choices in life. Being male, i feel as though my stance is pro choice, because it is not up to me what a woman does with her body. I'm not the one who has to give birth, so whatever decision is made i would stand by until my dying breath. Judging by the state of things in society today, that may not be far off....
I mean... the sun is going to explode in a few thousand years, and when that happens, we're pretty screwed. I hope i can watch it though, it'd be fascinating.
Today i noticed a protest put on by pro life supporters on the issue of abortion. They accused me of killing babies, saying that it's as bad as killing your friend... i looked at my friend, thought about it, and decided that i shouldn't kill him. I felt bad. "I'm sorry" i said, "I didn't mean to kill babies." I tried to explain myself but nobody listened. I think i know why they don't like me... they probably know that it was an abortion doctor that delivered me because my family doctor was unavailable. They shot him you know, the abortion doctor... they're probably coming after me next........
Sometimes i feel as though i have to apologize for my existance.
Well, apology accepted.
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He knows not what to write out of fear of what others will think...
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He wants to show the world for the way it is....
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. In one large swoop of his hand he aims to pick an idea from the world around him...
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He wishes to pour his soul into his work in order to express the....
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He starts time and time again, trying to grasp the words needed to express how he truly feels...
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He finds nothing...
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He does not wish to lie in his writings so he searches for the truth...
A man sits at his desk, inhibited by the life he has lead. He continues to sit there until the day he dies, and moments before he dies, he will write out the only truth he knows. He will write his name...
A man sits at his desk, finally understanding life in death.
|Thursday, April 29th, 2004|
|War has begun
As of this moment, i have declared open live journal war on Franners and perhaps Ms. Farenheit. They will be taught who smells and who doesn't, so from now on, sides must be taken and i will hopefully conquer their live journals by early fall.... and so it begins.... end game
|I want to be a Cowboy
I want to be a Cowboy
I'm going to be a Cowboy
I'm born to be a Cowboy
I'll always be a cowboy Current Mood: crazy
|Ramblings of a consumer whore
Yesterday i was walking along the street and a man told me that i need to stop buying into the hype and be free to think for myself, i thought that it was a good idea so i'm trying it.
Alternative music is a lot like pop rocks. It's nice to have once and a while, but you really can't make it a daily habit or your teeth could fall out.
I think my postman hates me, i haven't got my mail in a week... i think he may be reading my live journal, but i don't know. LJ and i are having this fight over me using my email, so i haven't been able to ask yet.
If a cow can make milk, why can't i? It'd be cheaper than going to the store.
Apparently eating is against my religion... i'm going to have to check on this... Current Mood: confused
|Wednesday, April 28th, 2004|
|Where are my socks?
Yesterday my friend Larry said that if i love live journal so much, i should marry it. I think he's on to something... Current Mood: contemplative